a real man

so there's this boy. i feel so deeply for him. its something of what ive never felt. you kno how u be in relationships and u feel like the other person is unfaithful or feel no interseted but you still stay. well with him i dont feel that way. at first i was kinda scared. i was like theres gotta b a catch because this boy is too perfect. he too good to be true. and i realized when u sike your self out you end up loosing a good thing. not all men are out for blood. some are out for love. so if your mind and heart dont have a doubt dont make it doubt. dont make your self see the bad. just accept the good and be happy and thankful for finding a good person. im so thankful that i have him in my life. its so hard not thinking i might fuck up but i kno if its something good imma do my best to keep what we have. ive been thru too much to just go back to the bottom. ive never met a dude who can make my stomach do backflips of joy. not pain. And never have i ever met a guy who shows so much love and compassion for a person. he just exceeds my expectations. he my dream guy. i cherish the day he told me he loves me. he dont hold back his feelings and shows me the contents of his heart. i feel like thee luckiest girl in the world.

What is a friend?

how much is enough? you can b thee best friend u can be but still get fucked over. im starting to think that being friendless is the best way to go since i grew up with no friends to begin with. some might say im not people friendly but i damn sure wont fuck anyone over. its like this; either u have a friend who is real with u some times too real or...deal with back stabbing. id rather have a person to keep it as real as possible because im a very forgiving person but...what i can forgive is lying. if i give you my word that im going to forgive u then u as my friend should believe me. which leads me to my story..lol. so i have this friend. She been down since middle school and shit. but she lies to me. about big shit. but thats not the point. she messed with a couple of my exes behind my back. she lies about it at first. then the truth comes out later. i dont understand it. why is it so damn hard 2 b honest? so we in vegas and shit. you know..partying...drinking..shit like that. and i get so damn drunk i forget thee whole damn night. but anyways. i knew this guy from long beach that was out there on business and he was at the bar with me and her just drinking and shit. so i get too drunk and he walks me to the front of the hotel i was staying at. not to the room just the front. she tells my auntie im fucking the boy. but she ended up looking dumb cuz my auntie came up 2 the room and i was there. then she came to the room and my auntie left. my cousin and her friends came 2 the room and from what i was told she was having a major confession session. she said she wanted to fuck my boy friend and she fucked more of my exes and all kinda shit...like wtf. so yea i dont kno what a friend is. cuz if thats a friend....illl ride out alone