T0RN BETWEEN L0VERS

JUST TO BE CLEAR.....iM A VERY HONEST PERSON AND iM A STRONG BELIEVER IN MONOGAMY SO THERE iS NO CHEATiNG GOING ON WiTHiN THiS SiTUATiON.


iM USUALLY THAA TYPE WHO DONT GET iNTO RELATiONSHiPS UNLESS iM REALLY FEELiNG THAA DUDE. WELL i HAVE A BOYFRiEND WHOM i CARE FOR DEARLY iTS NOT LOVE BUT i LiKE DUDE ALOT. HE SAiD HE LOVE ME BUT i JUST DONT FEEL iT. i JUST FEEL DEEPLY FOR HiM. THAA WAY i AM i DONT REALLY BELiEVE WHAT iM TOLD THAT EASiLY. WHiCH iS SAD CUZ i MiGHT BE MiSSiNG OUT ON THAA BEST THiNG FOR ME VERSES MY EX FiANCE. WHiCH iS BACK iN THAA PiCTURE BUT EVERYONE KEEP TELLiNG ME TO KEEP HiM iN THE PAST. MY HEART WONT LET ME. iT TOOK ALOT FOR ME TO LET HiM GO AND NOW THAT HE BACK iTS LiKE DAMN i JUST WANNA UP AND LEAVE MY SiTUATiON THAT iM iN NOW BUT iTS NOT RiGHT FOR ME TO DO THAT. iTS LiKE MY BOYFRiEND HAS THAA POTENTiAL TO HAVE ME FALL iN LOVE WiTH HiM BUT iTS NOT HAPPENiNG NOW. MY EMOTiONS ARE SO EAGER TO FEEL SOMETHiNG AND SOON BUT iT MiGHT BE FOR THAA WRONG PERSON. I MEAN i LOVE MY EX WiTH ALL MY HEART. BUT HE BAD FOR ME. HE LiE AND CHEAT AND HE ABANDONED ME YET i WANT TO SPEND THAA REST OF MY LiFE WiTH HiM. i SWEAR BEiNG A GiRL FUCKEN SUCKS. i WAS SUPPOSE TO BE A MAN I SWEAR iWAS CUZ i ACT JUST LiKE ONE BUT MY EX BRINGS MY GIRLISH QUALiTiES OUT OF ME WHiCH COULD B GOOD OT BAD BUT AROUND MY BOYFRIEND I FEEL FREE TO BE WHO I AM. WHICH IS A BURPING FAT OBNOXIOUS GIRL WHO DONT CARE WHO'S WATCHiNG WHEN i DO SO. I JUST NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHiCH iS GOOD FOR ME CUZ i DONT WANNA PROLONG THiS ORDEAL CUZ iTS JUST GONNA HURT SOMEONE EVEN MORE iN THAA END.